I feel like im going to have a heart attack, im freaking out LOL augh....for a stupid reason i had a craving for a smoke a week or so ago, so i stole one and took like 2 puffs out of it....then i felt nausious so i put it in a jewlery box , i forgot to throw it out anyway
mum cleaned my room today so she could shampoo my carpet and when i looked in my box to throw it out there was other stuff packed in it!!! SHE KNOWS I STOLE IT! I JUST KNOW IT! BUT SHE WONT SAY ANYTHING ITS MAKING ME NERVOUS, IM NOT A SMOKER NOR WILL I EVER BE, EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER AND IM ASHAMED TO EVEN HAVE STOLEN IT! ITS NOT MHY FAULT IM CONSITENTLY SURRPUNDED BY FUCKING SMOKERS, I HATE CIGs WITH A PASSION! DONT JUDGE ME! IM NOT A SMOKER....
;_; aughhhhhh, *panics* shes goign to bring it up, i KNOW she is!
Well there's really nothing you can do but tell the honest truth.
ReplyDeleteMaybe your parents will realize someone around you (maybe them) are bad influence and will stop the behavior.
I used to want to smoke for a really long time, because all my fave anime characters did it and it just seemed like a 'cool' thing to do.
But when my girlfriend started doing it, I realized it was just stupid and a waste of time. When you see someone you love do that, it really makes you realize how dumb and dangerous it is.
Don't feel bad hun, curiosity is curiosity. You probably don't have a nicotine addiction, your nervousness is just making you think you do.
Just calm down, rehearse what you will say to your mom, and relax. If she hasn't come screaming at you yet, then she will probably approach you about it nicely and you guys will have a serious talk that you may have needed to have back when you were younger and needed to be reassured of this stuff.
Just explain your reasons. Say you were just so used to it, you wanted to try it out and tell her you didn't like and don't plan on starting.